I have seen a few of her videos. Reading a Bradshaw book now. 12 step is a big part of his recovery model. I have tried that but the groups in my area all seemed to be heavily Christian based. They would gather in a circle holding hands at the end and recite the Lord's Prayer. I didn't feel comfortable with that (it is supposed to be a higher power as I see it). I was raised Catholic but am more spiritual now... not into organized religion. But there really doesn't seem to be any other support group available. I went on wellbutrin and now added zoloft to try and tweak my brain chemistry for less social anxiety and more motivation. But so far it has only made me actually deeply depressed. Maybe my expectations with meds are a bit unrealistic. But hopefully I can dial things in to eventually boost my mood. My biggest obstacle has been seeking out and fostering healthy, beneficial relationships. I tend to just let them atrophy over time and people just drift away. Like Bradshaw says... I don't feel deserving of anyone's help.
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