"Does this ever go away!!! "

depends on your choce.
i mean-if you try to relax and let the bad feeling go.

if
(i think that people get mad at me if i say "let og" another time)

but not only that. i know it happenes gradually but it happenes. i used to have bad feelings about htings i did...

why do you htink your parent would be disapointed?
becasue you still struggle with he thought it was "bad..."

i suppose mabe the first step towards better is to EXCEPT the fact that now you are the way you are. i mean-in the healing process - you are where you are and that`s the case. becasue...

"IF YOU FIGHT WITH REALITY YOU WILL ALWAYS LOSE"
-kettie Bayron (great isn`t she!!!)
she has that book and it`s talking about loving adn excepting what we have.

but if you go on working on your self asteem/confidance i believe one day you will figure out the problems are not a part from who you are.
it happened to me....i hope it`ll happen to you as well.