I'm so sorry for the way your mother talks to you. It seems so confusing how a person who should be our biggest safe-haven is often the one we want so desperately to free ourselves from. No mother should ever say such hurtful things. It reminds me of my relationship with my mother when I was younger, now as an adult I really have to take her in small increments and that's the great thing you can look forward to someday. The day will come when you have a choice to see her or not, you will feel better then. For now, don't take those hateful words to heart, they will disintegrate your soul and you need that soul to live a happier life and to protect you in the future. Know that what she says is a reflection into the person SHE is, not the person YOU are.

Is there any way your t will meet with you privately? You may feel so much more relief and be able to open up more in a trusting environment.

Stay strong.