thanks guys

now i have to look for another job. im also trying to move apartments. this is a really stressful time but the voices havent come back yet so that shows improvement in my condition. usualy i would be hallucinating by now but ive learned better coping skills and maybe its because i have weed to keep me calm. but i cant tell my T that i have weed or he will get mad and not work with me. i feel bad lying to T but the weed seriously helps my depression its the only thing thats worked for me. anyway, i applied at a few CVS in the area. theres not many jobs out there for retail right now. i cleaned some of my apartment today and my mom is coming tomorrow to help me clean the rest and do the dishes. i hope shes not too mad at how messsy ive let it become.