Started out the day using "didn't set the alarm" as an excuse to not hurry and go to church. Woke at 9:36, service begins at 10:30 and is two minutes...three blocks from home.

I then talked to a neighbor on the phone about going to a movie, she declined as she promised to take her disabled/blind daughter to lunch. But, she heard the lack of emotion in my voice. I have been home since Christmas Day. She called a bit later and asked me to join them. I did. She can always make me laugh, sometimes barrel laughs.

People know I am not a smiler. I have one person who comes up to me at church and grins. Her way of telling me to smile. She can read me well, better than anyone else. She teaches Social Psychology at a university in Baltimore.

It isn't any wonder people stay away from me!!

But I am back home where I feel safe. The only other place I feel safe is my psychologist office. Isn't that a sad state of affairs

The second quote below is true of me. Getting out and involved scares me. It amazes me all that I accomplished during my working years.