Yesterday I was glad to be alive and trusting in the Lord, today I am depressed, bored, lonely, and anxious.

The last two days the temperatures were mild and I was able to get in two-mile walks each day; now we're back to sub-zero temps with the wind chill and it's icy, so no walks and back to cabin fever.

I'd slipped on the ice the other day and, while thankfully I didn't fall, I did pull a muscle in my back so I'm in pain and having mobility problems. Despite five doctor appointments and any number of prescriptions and nasal sprays, I am suffering again today from allergy-type symptoms and am miserable. My job situation is a mess, I'm on administrative leave but expect HR will be calling me this upcoming week to tell me I've been laid off...again...this time at age 58. One interview has already sent me the thanks-but-no-thanks email and I expect one from the second company I'd interviewed with as well. So losing hope and trying to deal with the immense feelings of injustice and hurt and anger I feel towards my employer, not to mention the "friends" at work who have abandoned me.

I hate my life most days and can't wait for it to be over. Sincerely appreciate your reading this, tho, thanks. I'm grateful to the people on this board who understand and make me feel less alone in sharing their issues as well.