Dear Lady Dragus --
I am sorry that you are feeling low. This is a good place to vent. I agree with all of the suggestions others have contributed.
I've been teaching college for the past 12 years, and I have seen quite a few students go through emotional upheavals that required taking a time out.
It's great that you have a counselor who care enough to have this contract with you not to hurt yourself. That's a terrific and huge first step. Give yourself a big hug for that!
It's also helpful that your boyfriend is sticking with you.
Lastly, I support the non-permanent solution to college: Don't make a permanent decision when you are confused, but do make space for a breather so you can sort things out. There are a lot of pressures in college, and sometimes my students do take on course loads that are too great. Anything you can do to give yourself a time out, without quitting after so much hard work and personal sacrifice, seems like a good compromise.
Keep sharing here.
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