Elektra_,

Pardon me for interrupting, but it sounds to me as though the T that you're currently seeing has her walls up (perhaps to prevent T attachment) to make this therapy about YOU. She didn't say, "I don't like you." What she said was, "Not, it's not liking you.." which I take as her meaning: It's not about liking or not liking you ~ instead, it's about doing her job to help you.

Do you see what I am saying? I can feel your anger and resistance to trust opening up to this T. Perhaps you should start your next meeting with her by sharing your thoughts and feelings with her via a written message. Hand it to her, or read it allowed. But, in my personal experience, I can go a lot deeper and more intellectually (straight-forward) when I write it out.

Both my pDoc and T used to really appreciate me taking the time to write it out, as it helped them understand how I was feeling (and why) a lot better.

Gentle hugs to you!