That sort of connection is really important to me. I've never had it from my family and so I had to emotionally shut them out to protect myself from being hurt even more. I also find that I don't any sort of desire to persue any relationships that don't have an element of that connection. I'm also a bit lost as to how to find it in the real world, but it is really important to me. I need to be seen and accepted and to be able to offer it in return.