I agree. Four months is not a ton of time to move on. I don't know how long your relationship was but he was your life and lifestyle for a set period of time. Usually the longer you were together the harder it is to readjust and try to create a new life. It really is life changing. It's not like a break up is like moving on your merry own way for everyone. It is taking your life and what you grew used to and completely rearranging it. Similar in the sense to a very strict diet or an alcoholic giving up the bottle. The only difference is you have to learn to be stronger than that because this isn't necessarily a vice that you can go back to. It is a grieving and restructuring process. It's been four months for me too and trust me. I think about him everyday and I hate it. The good things that you do that you feel would show good in his eyes. Keep doing them regardless. Try to concentrate harder on the things you are doing. Gradually, you'll do them for your own benefit and you'll think less of doing them for him. Eventually it will feel more rewarding. I have faith you'll get through this. :-)