Well, I did put health up there for 2 reasons. One is I genuinely want to get healthier in other areas not just this one so it's all in a package. The other is that a friend who quit smoking a long time ago developed stage 4 lung cancer recently. It woke me up to an urgency about quitting, when I had already been trying anyway.

Mainly I'm just sick of the whole thing, the way it smells and tastes, the fact that it's expensive and stupid. A total waste in every way. I'm still in some denial about the fact that I've been a smoker. I've always eaten healthy and worked out and often only smoked in the evenings while socializing. But with PTSD and depression smoking became more like a friend and like I needed it. People who don't understand the intersection with mental health issues may not understand that that adds to the difficulty of quitting if you have these things going on. That's why I'm posting here because I feel like that is understood.

Thanks for all your support. I'm glad you quit and are around to guide me.