Hi Girl.

I just finished responding to your other topic...hopefully, I was of some help there. I'll do what I can here.

The anniversary of anything of such magnitude, either good or bad, tends to bring back a lot of memories associated with it. Simply looking at it from a social standpoint, it's the same reason wedding anniversaries and birthdays are celebrated, in a large way. It's the same logic here, only it's, unfortunately, a hugely negative, awful thing. I mention this to say simply to not beat yourself up...you've done so well in working past this, and the anniversary of such a thing is always an immensely hard thing.

Time does heal, but it does so at its own pace, if left solely to time. I do think a therapist would be immensely beneficial if you could see one. Things WILL get better Girl...if nothing else, do believe that. I remember your story, and I know you to have the strength and determination to get through this. I won't lie and say it's going to be easy...likely, it will be a long road to healing through this. But I know you can do it Girl. I have nothing but faith in you.

Useless Me summed up my thoughts on this perfectly...stories like yours should never exist. It pains me so, so much to see people, ESPECIALLY young people (or in your case, someone not much younger than I) to suffer so much over something they had virtually no control over. It angers me infinitely toward the abuser (which I think I may've let some of that slip on my post in your other topic...my apologies there), and it saddens me more than I can begin to tell you to see someone suffer so much. Like Useless Me, I echo the sentiment of human to human love, and extend the same offer that if I can do anything at all to help, you need only PM me. As a fellow human being, I owe at least that much to you.

Know you're in my prayers, and that I wish you all of my best.

Many hugs,
Harley

PS: Please, allow me a moment to extend this...I find your faith both incredibly admirable and inspirational. In fact, I envy you there...you're much more devoted in your faith than I ever was or ever have been. I could stand to learn something from you there.