Bless your heart Girl...I am so sorry.

I wish I could tell you something that would take away the pain, and let you go about your life without being haunted by this memory. I wish desperately that I could. Sadly, if those words exist out there somewhere, I don't know them. I am sorry.

The best I can tell you Girl is to look at where you are now. Things aren't easy right now, but you know what? You survived. You're taking steps to try to help yourself. You're doing everything in your power to move past the memory of this "man" (and I do say that so very, very loosely...he destroyed any semblance of humanity he may have once had by doing something so awful, in my eyes) and his evil. In the long run? You've won. You've shown that you're unwilling to let what he did stop you from living. You've shown that you're going to go about your life. It's not easy at times, I know...it's a hard road, and there's bumps along the way. But you're taking the courage to go down that road, hard as it may be at times. Simply by doing that, you've shown you have more power and more strength than that parasite will ever have as long as he will draw breath (which, frankly, I hope is short on his part).

I commend your strength on resisting SI...I know that's a difficult pattern to break. Would it help if you had someone to talk to if you're considering SI? Do you, if it would help?

Girl, please know you're in my prayers, and that you have my respect for the strength you've displayed in this. I'm rooting for you.

Hugs,
Harley