I think even after all this time and meds that I'm still depressed. Will call doc and let her know I want to up meds. Worse though is I can't think! I never lose at Rummy and I never lose at Boggle and I'm losing constantly. On top of that my anxiety has been high. It's in my body, hard to explain. I go back to work next monday. It's a very demanding job I have been at for 15 years, can I do it? O have to think and remember for my job. Very complex stuff. I can't say that I'm sad, really blah. Wouldn't do much of anything if I didn't have to. No nap today either. Mowed lawns and did banking all morning and took the girls to the beach. Took me two hours to get them in the water. aghh teenagers! What's wrong with me? I want to be okay and I am working so damned hard.