GOMF,

I wanted to respond to you the other night, when I read this, but I was too tired to get my thoughts together.

I do remember you very well, indeed. I can assure you that while you feel alone emotionally, so many of us are there hoping and wishing for you. I am not a religious person, therefore, I don't pray...but that doesn't mean that I don't ever think and hope deeply for others.

I actually have a gold ornament hanging on my dresser, just a word. It says "hope". I often look at that word & it reminds me to keep on going. It is right next to artwork that my daughters have made for me over the years. Necklaces, a sweet heart sign that says "#1 MOM", as well as another sweet sign wishing me a Happy May Day with colored flowers in it. That's what keeps me pushing through daily life.

I know that you're rather young, but you can remind yourself that we all have a special bond as survivors of abuse. Maybe going to a small local group support is what would help you make it through. A therapist could be very helpful as well, but it sounds like you're looking to make a bond or two with your peer group. (That's my interpretation anyway.) You can continue to go to your church, and perhaps start a teenage support group there.

Supporting others brings in some strength somehow. Even in our weakest times, we somehow find the strength inside to help others. Others will be there to listen to you as well ~ they will support you emotionally.

I do wish you the very best & hope that you find the resource/s that you need to help you make it through this difficult time. We are all thinking positive thoughts for you, that I can guarantee!