medicalfox I'm so sorry that you're struggling with this situation. Maybe if you sit down with this person, just you and them, and admit to their face looking them in their eyes exactly what you did to them then they can begin their healing. It sounds like it must have been something very serious that you did. Maybe you also need to give them the opportunity to look you in your eyes, face to face, and tell you how they feel about what you did. This might be hard for you to sit through but you have to do this for both of you to heal. You can't change what you don't acknowledge.