One time, I said a word that wasn't a swear word and she was shocked...

I'm joking. I cuss a LOT at baseline casual conversation level and even more when I start to feel uncomfortable. So I curse all the time. T1 curses with me just as naturally as I do. My substitute T in the residential program would too. My old T didn't at first and then she decided to start. It's cute to watch her curse because she's not good at it and when she uses it, she puts a ton on emphasis on it like it's this awkward thing she can't quite hold. Third T doesn't curse.

I also curse a lot in group. Once every three weeks, one of the group leaders would be like "uh maybe we shouldn't let her just run her mouth like that" but no one had a real issue with it. Until the last week of my program. T1's intern proposed a challenge for me to not use the f bomb for an entire day. I asked her why she wanted to censor me, why did you have to present it as a game when you could have just told me why you think using that particular word is damaging toy treatment or the comfort of the other clients and "*****, you better be prepared to back your **** up when you tell me your reasons why. I don't like to deprive myself of the simple pleasures of using language and please don't patronize me by presenting this as some sort of ******* kid's game because I am not a ******* child". She started crying. Admittedly, I had a ton of attitude but she also should have been able to see that I was merely being an *** because I wouldn't be able to express myself at all when I got forced back to my parent's house. But I wish I didn't make her cry. I don't want to hurt anyone.