Thanks for the reply. I really needed to hear (or read) everything you just said right now. My mind was made up to not go.
You are right I should tell her. She has no idea of these transference or attachment issues I have with her.
I'm not sure if I want to go to the extent of telling her about those feelings but I should at least tell her I was nervous about going back after making it through the week?

Another reason I don't want to go is I just saw my Psychiatrist last week and told him about my SI issues and he didn't take me seriously. Didn't change meds, add anything, etc... He just had a couple suggestions and said "I hope things start feeling better". I left feeling worse! So I kind of got mad at this whole therapy process altogether.
I haven't even been "boy [or girl] who cries wolf" about SI. When I mention it I'm serious and I want them to take me seriously. I don't want this to go further than it has to because I didn't receive the right kind of help in time.

I guess part of me wanted to take it out on my Therapist too... Which isn't fair to her.

"You're stronger than you think."