sometimes it's just really frustrating to feel super down and sui.. without any trigger at all.

what's even frustrating is that i've been trying to relay this to my pdoc and T about how i am feeling.. and the first question they ask is "why? what were the triggers?" what's even more ironic is that they keep harping on the chemical imbalance theory. if they believe in that, then... isn't there going to be episodes where there is no trigger at all?

my reply to their answer: i'm just tired. of being in this war with myself everyday. i did not choose for this; i just don't want to continue fighting anymore.

sometimes it feels like i've grown accustomed to feeling this way..

anyone facing this frustration with their pdoc/T? :/