Thank you all. I'm feeling a little better today.

I realize that meds probably won't cure all my problems, but will hopefully give me the boost that I need.

In the past I know that the depression was caused by my anxiety and social phobia, but now it just feels "different". It's hard to explain. The anxiety is still there but it doesn't seem to me that it's what is causing the depression to be worse. It's more of the feelings of being a failure, not worth anything, etc that seem to be causing it now.

I do think that my weight and body image has a lot to do with things. I don't look overweight, and people tell me that I carry the weight well and don't look like I weigh what I do, but "technically" I am overweight. I told myself that I wouldn't let myself get to 200lbs, but my overeating has been rampant for the last few months. I pulled out the scale yesterday, and lo and behold I'm at 201lbs. I do go to the gym to lift weights pretty regularly, and we have a treadmill at home that I use occasionally, but I find that getting motivated to exercise wears me out more than the actual exercise itself. I've never been a particularly motivated or driven person.

Anyway, my brain is all jumbled up right now and I can't really think of more to respond with (this is something else that tends to happen to me quite a lot ). Thanks again for the replies.