This morning I cracked under the pressure. I usually SI straight before getting in the shower. So, for three days I procrastinated like crazy about showering because I had really strong urges and I was afraid I'd fall apart and act on them if I took a shower. But my hygiene needs got the better of me. I couldn't stand the thought of being dirty and having greasy hair. In the end I relapsed... I lost the battle this time. But the war is far from over.