Wow,that was not what you want/need when you tell somebody. Especially a family member. Even if he was in a bad mood that was still very mean of him to say that. Obviously he does not know we already have those thoughts and him saying that makes things worse.
I tried telling my bio mom a couple nights ago. Took her to dinner and told her about some of my symptoms,like just how seriously close I was to pulling the trigger. And how terrified I am of losing my family if I reveal what I have. We talked for a long time but I just couldn't bring myself to say I have bpd. So now she is trying to guess what is wrong with me. I'm gonna try again in a couple days,when my big sis can be there too. I really need and want their support.