I feel guilty that I am an unemployed 29-year-old who live off her mother and sisters.

I feel guilty that my sisters have to shoulder the debts that I have chalked up but am unable to pay off now that I am unemployed.

I feel guilty and angry for wasting my life away; I had a good education and well paying jobs. Why did i let manic depression take all these away? Why can't I have coping mechanisms like others in times of stress? Why did I let all the problems snow-ball, and not seek help earlier? Why am I not actively seeking help now?

I am so angry at myself for causing my family to suffer, emotionally and financially.

I am angry at myself for being a coward, for hiding at home in complete isolation from everyone. I am angry for letting the depression repeat itself all over again, year after year.