Wisewoman,

As has been said in many posts; you are not alone. Every day I wonder what the h*ll is wrong with me? I have been in therapy for 12 years and haven't been able to feel better about myself and the issues I have; how sad is that. Every day I battle myself; it takes me soooo long to do the easiest tasks ( when I think about them my brain actually hurts)and takes my time away my kids. I have been told that I won't feel better until I am truly ready. Truly ready; of course I want to the is pain sucks the life out of you. Then I am told you are not ready; what you need to realize is that it is easier to stay miserable than to make the necessary changes in your life. Talk about mind boggling; who wants to cry everyday and feel like they are worthless?
I did not plant one flower this year; my lawn looks as dreary as I feel. scrambled. I haven't work 6 years; I am a stay at home mother, though I don't think that is the way to describe me; more like a blob. . Financially my family really needs me to go back to work; work I can't even put the laundry away without being confused. I know we are not suppose to get down about ourselves. It is so hard to be apart of other peoples world when your mind is scrambled and you can't follow a conversation without feeling like you don't compare to them.
Hang in there; have you gone to any support groups? Have you tried any workbooks? Sometimes these help people tremendously more than other things.
A support group that is available all over the US is the
Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance dbsalliance.com; check them out.
keep in touch; it seems we have alot in common