I sent my T an email last night. He has been on vacation but I see him tomorrow I hope.
He has not gotten back to me. I told him I need a safety plan for NYE. I tend to get triggered and spiral down almost every time. I spoke with my best friend and she is expecting me to call her NYE. I simply afraid and growing more panicy as time passes.

I'm surprised he hasn't gotten back to me, and I'm getting a little upset. I know I shouldn't be so dependent on him and I am seeing him tomorrow. What a Dope!! Feeling so foolish.