Ohhh, I feel for your pain, I wish I could give you a magic answer that would make it go away! I have felt like this before, and sometimes it feels so uncomfortable just to be in your own skin.
You are doing well to get out, to keep trying. Beleive me, please, you will heal, I know it hurts now, and its hard to beleive that it will pass.
But, it honestly will, honestly. Someday, a year from now maybe, and you'll look back and this will seem like a vague memory. But, hopefully,dear sad little one, you will pull yourself along every day in spite of the heartache, and learn whatever lesson was in this for you, and realize you have so much heart give yourself the love and attention you need right now, try not to judge yourself.
Watch some sad movies and cry your eyes out. Eventually the tears will dry and it will be like the old Fleetwood Mac song, "when the rain washes you clean you'll know".