Ok so my ex lives states away. She gets money from me, without any court order to do so, regularly every 2 weeks. I have agreed that basically based on her having the boys a certain amount of time per year, the amount is fair. But that's where the catch is. Reality is, in the past 2 years, she's had them perhaps 4 or 5 weeks last summer, and Thanksgiving prior.

Christmas came and went and although she said she "wants to" have them for Christmas break some of the time, that never happened. No explanation, nothing from her. No gifts for her boys.. because though I hate to say this about anyone, she somehow is under the impression that the world has held her down, she's a victim of the mean-ness of the world, including me. ME, the one that takes care of her kids 99% of the year, feeds, clothes and shelters them day in and day out. While she lives with her bf in another state she CHOSE to move away from her kids to.

I am frankly, fed up. I'm so done with this. Called an attorney's office and plan to retain a lawyer and get it all over with. It all came to a head this past holiday. She NOT ONLY did not show up with no explanation to take them with her for a few days, she did not explain. She DID NOT talk to them. NO Merry Christmas, nothing. Not even gifts. They got Zip from her. She finally called on the 27th or something like that and acted like nothing was amiss and just wantte to talk to them. She did.

So recently we've moved. It cost me most of my finances for the month and in order to take care of having food for the remainder of this pay period I chose to sell the ps3. My son told her, which is fine. She said to them, now that she has a job (retail, best buy or something)she'd get them one and I couldn't sell it. Not only was this insulting, but had a serious air of judgement about it i didn't like. This person, who abandons her kids, got fired from 3 jobs in the past 18 months! Someone that is taking money from me, is going to judge me and comment on what I do with what i have?

So I called her on it, in email. I told her that it was a little insulting that she would do that. Her response was like the final nail to the coffin that represents my resolve to finish this. She replied basically she had no idea waht I was talking about and then added "I really do not need this right now" HONESTLY. That takes the cake. Living a life free of burden of her responsibilities as a mother. To play and live in technically infidelity even as we are separated. To party and all the stuff that a mid life crisis woman wants to do.. and she doesn't need it? Frankly this is not surprising as she has always been one to have a problem with people that call her on things that she is doing wrong.

I'm just done.

/end rant