Usually I wear very neutral, non-attention-grabbing clothing to therapy, with dark colors and jeans. Maybe it's because when I wear what would be considered fashionable, even though I may like it, I feel as if I'm an imposter and as though it doesn't fit with my identity. I guess I fear wearing a more fashionable outfit to therapy and then finding that my T is surprised or that she'll think of me as a different person from what she has seen before.
I recently stumbled across an article from a therapist talking about how she believes that what clients wear to therapy tells a lot about them: who they are, what they hope to be, and what they feel on a given day. It kind of freaks me out that my T probably notices what I wear and I wonder what my clothing choices say to my T. Maybe that I'm trying not to be noticed.
In therapy, I tend to be extremely self-conscious about how I look, and it sometimes influences me to actively avoid eye contact. Though in real life I wouldn't say I have significant body image issues and I've never discussed body image before with my T. Recently I braved wearing boots, and she complimented me on them. It was the first compliment she ever really gave me, and I wonder if she said it to "reward" me for showing personality in the way I dress. Or maybe I'm thinking way too much into it.
Does anyone else feel increased self-consciousness about their appearance in therapy? How do you dress when you see your T, and do you think it says anything noteworthy about you?
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