Hi, Heather. It is awful to feel paralyzed. I've been there. As far as: where to start? One place is as good as another. There is no one best way to proceed. Sometimes, even if you find a caring therapist whom you respect, it may not change much in your life.

Sounds like you need more support from caring people in your life. When family and friends don't come through for us, it certainly can be awfully disappointing and leave us feeling so bereft. I think you are have some good ideas in talking about meds, therapy, and reading some self-help literature. These are all good and can help. You make have to just wait out the really bad time of feeling awful down. Usually, for most people, it doesn't last forever. I hope things get better for you. Tell us, if they do . . . or if they don't.