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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0
Thanks guys, your support means a lot to me.
I know this will pass, if I'm lucky it'll be over in about 2 weeks, which is my usual MO.
But I also know it will rear its ugly head again and again, and again and again.
That's the part that's got me so damn mad, and utterly hopeless. That no matter how happy or stable I am, that no matter how hard I work at being whole and healthy, it all disappears in the blink of an eye and I'm back in this pit of dispair aGain!
I'm just over this whole experience, I don't see a point in trying to get better, or trying to fight it. I just honestly don't.
Instead of chewing me to a fine paste, regurgitating me, giving me a break, and then starting again, I wish it would just swallow me whole and be done with me already
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In sort of a way, I'm kind of in the same place. I've learned this comes and goes and my heart goes out to you. but with that acceptance, for me, it's taught me not to be so hard on myself and just learn to cope with it better. I am what I am... I don't believe in a total cure and thus, I have to deal with it and get through even the worst of times no matter what. Even in your worst moments, you know, things will pass... focus on that hun... it will come again but you will have more good stuff coming. I promise. *hugs*