Well, on a personal level (without condemning or condoning your own preferences) I've never been able to willingly hurt others or especially enjoy doing so. Perhaps it's part of my makeup, but I just tend to shy towards tolerance, even with those who I probably should despise.

Saying that, others don't tend to hurt me even if they are intending to.

My anger most of the time is very internal... in the early stages of my depression I probably did lash out but I've learnt that the lashing out is a domino effect... that those who have had the misfortune of being under my verbal radar where certainly not at fault... they were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. As it stands now, I do my damn hardest to keep a lid on the 'lashing' as it's just a symptom of the anxiety (there I've said it... it probably is anxiety, I just don't like acknowledging that little pet hate of mine) and causes more harm than good.

Thanks Clara... mostly replying in general because of this post. Being a bloke and perhaps nonchalant when it comes acknowledging actual caring comments... I just want to ignore that defect of mine and say: thank you... it means a lot and I appreciate the sentiment

I am trying to be nice to the dog... it isn't her fault... she's been getting extra attention the last couple of days.