I hurt too much physically and emotionally. The pain is making me cry, I like it more when I can't feel anything. It takes too much effort to do anything. I just want to stay in bed away from the world until I feel better - whenever that will be.

It's like fighting an uphill battle against myself. And the "good" part of me is losing ...



Sorry for wasting everyone's time. Not deserving anyone's help. I'm going to shut up now before I make anyone upset. I'm sorry so sorry very sorry for everything.