I wrote some stuff out, but I found myself going in circles. Then I remembered my T saying I need to not get lost on that train of thought. I tried to condense what I was saying and move on. I still don't really know what this is, and it bothers me. Trying just to do art and get other release. I know I can't SI. The thoughts are never-ending, but I'm actively doing other things to not give in... I wish I knew what this limbo is. It's nothing I recognize. I have not SI'd since the middle of November, I can't give in now. I'm resorting to other means of getting similar sensations. It's working at the moment.
Thank you for the offers to chat. I just would not know what to say... I think that's a big part of my problem, I just have no words to convey everything. I don't even have the pictures in my head because I really don't know what it all is. very frustrating...