I spent a week under close watching eyes of my family. It was good, but it was do what the whole family wanted.. not do what you want.

I got back on Saturday, and still have one sister that is controlling..

I started to realize what was going on, and then I felt like I had some time to myself and ended up si'ing. It felt good, and I so want to do it again tonight. I just want to run, to get away from people. in my head I've had a lot of shame messages. And then this all adds up and it over takes me. It feels like there's no way out

To add to all of this, I will be going back to work after a TLC tendon tear. I'm scared that I'm returning to soon. (6 week in cast 6 weeks in brace, and now 4 weeks slowly adding activities.)

SO much emotion right now. Can I just run away tonight!!!! And then not come back.