I feel great today moodwise, a little tired though but thats to be expected. I got really paranoid last night, was thinking there were cameras watching me and feeling guilt for growling at the animals when they didnt behave. I was convinced that the dinner I made was going to make me sick and felt really ill for a long time which lead on to feeling panicky. My partner was able to talk me down from it getting too bad. It was really bizarre to be that paranoid with no triggering event, not even the use of drugs or alcohol. I have, however been drinking a bit more over the holiday period and I think it is starting to affect me a little bit. I havent had any weed since before christmas and I miss its calming stabilising effect.

Im starting to get very very tired at night, my mood drops slightly and I get irritable. I have also been doing a lot more with my days lately than I do usually. Spending far more time with my partner too so there could be a few contributing factors to these slight mood drops and random episodes of paranoia.

Last night was annoying because I couldnt sleep either and before that I was sleeping amazingly. I was hopeful that the good sleep would last but i guess this is just the way it is.