If they can handle your recent suicidal ideology and frequent attempts, then I do think that they will be open to understanding why this is happening & of course, they'll want to know what they can do to help improve your life. (And keep you safe)

Try not to worry too much. There are treatment styles that help make our world more acceptable, as we learn to recognize our thoughts as just that: thoughts. Check out the following site ~ it really has a lot of helpful techniques to get us through our rough moments.

DBT Self Help