...for about 5 days straight this week, i was in a really bad depression. cried cried cried...was really feeling like my life was in crisis. heck, even as recently as this afternoon i was uber down. tonight, however, i had this really odd burst of energy...i guess not weird in the sense that its never happened before, because its happened plenty...but i just dont understand it. when i say "silly burst of energy"...i get really strong urges to move...clap my hands, wave my arms, shake my legs, bounce, dance around like a fool...as well as make noise...sounds, sing, say random things repeatedly and i have to keep saying them until im satisfied. my body actually feel tense if i dont. im laughing my face off at nothing at all. it usually doesnt last more than 30 minutes or an hour when it happens and usually follows a depression that has lasted for days or weeks. sometimes after the "silly" episode, i "normalize"...and sometimes i go back to depression.

i hope ive made at least some sense here. i feel like im babbling. didnt know where this might fit...so here seemed best.