(((((((((((Sky)))))))))) - Thanks for the advice ... i looked at the cognitive distortions and it was kind of an eye opener for me ... hadn't realized how many categories that i fit into

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Thank you both for your support ....

I guess i just don't know "how" to get through this ... and i don't understand how for some people being "happy" is natural ... I've met so many people who have been through so much more and have came out as such strong people. I can only hope that one day i will be able to say as much about myself. Oh well ...