AK, I hope this isn't intruding on your "pain" but something just happened in T that resonated wiht me as I read your post. Today was the last session for a week and T asked if my quiteness in session wasn't in some way connected to the break next wk? I said I hadn't thought about that and maybe...then she asked didnt I feel I had the right to protest about next week? I said struggled and said why? it won't change anything. So I'm in quite resignation. Then she reminded me of somethign I had told her about when I was 4 and in hospital alone and wanted to be touched so much so made out I was asleep at night and stuck my hand out of the cot hoping a nurse would touch me, which she did but only to put my arm back. T said another child alone in hosptial would have screamed and then would have been picked up..but I had a passive resignation as if I wasn't entitled to be reassureed?

I walked away from T today thinking about this. I know I dont want to really get angry because the pain of being angry and still not getting satisfaction is to painful in my eyes..but what else is there to do? like yourself you must have felt so desloate yesterday knowing that no matter what you said or done your session wasn't going to happen. So how does one protest so that it doesnt make one feel even worse?