I go through spurts of being really into it or not going to meetings at all. Actually, right now I'm in between. I go to meetings and feel very welcome but it seems like somewhat of a charade for me because I don't feel I can talk about my mental health issues. I know it's not a support group for mental health issues, but sometimes when I share I feel like I'm just rambling on when all I want to do is scream, "Don't you know how depressed I am? Please help!"

When I told someone after the meeting I was depressed (I'm in a bipolar depressive phase right now), he advised me (not that I was looking for advice) to "help another person." Obviously, he doesn't get it. Frustrating, but not a shocker piece of advice from an AA perspective I guess.

I don't believe in all of AA's tenets like I used to.