I usually come here for support, private message, or occasionally the healthy parents form. IRL I turn to my therapist. It is easier for her to tell if it's my mood playing into my stress with him or not. When I'm depressed it's "what kinda a monster 'gives' this to a child. (Like I decided) it's our parenting, we put him through such a tough environment as a baby that he had to excape into himself. ... (all the other things judgmental people say)"

The frustration comes out a lot when I'm manic but I have contingency plans for that.