Thanks for the responses.

To answer both your questions. I was on Lexapro/Celexa for 2 years, and have now been on Depakote for 3 months and switched from Celexa to Effexor. I reached my full dose of Effexor two weeks ago. My pdoc gave me a prescription for Wellbutrin that I am suppose to get filled if I feel that I need to be "sharper", or if I'm feeling dull or "out of touch".

I have a T and have been seeing him for 2 months. He has introduced me to mindfulness which is really interesting.

I have been keeping a mood chart since January. I have to see, it hasn't had a positive or negative impact on me, but it's great to have as something to refer back to. I gave my pdoc a copy last time I saw her.

The thing is, I just get mad at myself for letting external things derail me. And then I just spiral downward. And I don't think any drug is going to fix that. I just have to conquer that on my own, by being more aware of my own mind.

The following statement is always true:
negative + negative = negative

So why is that so hard to acknowledge?