thanks a bunch im gonna have a read if i can get my hands on it hopefully it can help

it sucks going through a relationship to come out on the other end looking like a huge questionmark, worse when years pass and its caused you to be confused about your own identity even...?

i've only been to therapy a few times so im still new to it but im nervous / scared that its just going to make it worse, if i can just talk about this relationship i had and see if i can figure out why its still bothering me after so long i think i would be content and able to handle/ move on from where i am at with the other problems on my own

im hoping i have a good T so i dont have to suffer much - i still cant figure out her angle

it sounds like you have a good T now and she should be excited/happy about your revelations , i dont think you have to apologize to her because its not easy accepting these things sometimes and i think they are suppose to understand that and be patient? i would take the book with me as incentive to make myself talk about it