I am .....I'm so glad u continued to post this thread. I am sorry you feel the way you do. I think that you are very hard on yourself. I can totally understand how you feel. I to have zero self esteem.

God didn't make us all beauty queens ya know. The majority us us ladies are a size 12 or above. Models are a size 0 to 3. So that makes most of us overweight.

When I found my H, I had given up looking. I had decided it was the single life for me. Then my H cam along. And he was done with girls, like I was done with guys. Let me tell u I was not the prettiest girl around. I had a bubble butt and no boobs and acne so bad it would scare Freddy Crouger. But ya know my H was not looking for a model, he was looking for a friend.

I am not real affectionate. In fact I hate physical affection,i'm not talking sex, I mean holding hands, hugs, kissing, that kinda stuff. I was self absorbed with my horses and gave my H little attention. We have been married for 19 years. I'm still no babe, in fact I look like I ate several skinny girls. I'm no skinny chick, but my H still loves me, or so he says.

The world is full of folks who are happy to have someone who is not perfect. I have a friend who has slight downs syndrome, she has gotten married. There is someone who here at PC that has found a mate for life. He has no legs and is wheel chair bound. There are people out there who just want a friend, and you are one of them. Surely there are others who just want a friend. The whole world is not taken and you the only one who is single. As you get older u will realize that looks fade and it is what is in your heart that attracts a man and vice versa. Someone will come your way one day, and if not then it is there loss. Find something you do love and give your heart to it. I used to show horses, I gave my heart and soul to it. I don't show anymore but I still have a horse and he still has my heart. After almost 20 years of marriage I am still not touchy feelie. I have oodles of issues. I am closer to my animals then I am to my H. He gets that and most days he understands and has become accustomed to it.

If u need another female who is not a model please don't hesitate to give me a PM.