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Originally Posted by potdecole70
Thank you for taking the time to read and give me great feed back. Truth is I have stoped seeing my therapist. The last time I saw him I was in my black fase I had nothing good to say about my boyfriend. I also have been in the state that he is so wonderful he is my king he is perfect. I fell it is so hard for people to understand. My boyfriend is not perfect he also is not the evil guy I make him out to be. Its me its all good or all evil. I never see greay areas. Somehow fooled my therapist into beleiving that I should leave my boyfriend. My therapist is only human. I would prefer he would call me on my insanity. Tell me im not being fair. After all how can I ever get better if the professional cant tell me whats wrong if they dont point out where my head is far off. I have done this to my family members too. They now hate my boyfriend. It makes me so sad angry and isolated. Its not him its me. He supports me hes always here for me. Yes when I attack him verbally he can't coop. He takes it personally. There for he fights with me makes things worst when I need love he takes it away. I have though Bout this and think I will go see my therapist soon. I also made a dr appointen. I would like to go to a hospital. But not where I was before. All they did is load me with all kinds of medication. Only talked with me a few Times a week. I live in canada and need a hospital where help is there. A place where they focus on improving your life.
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When I see someone is new here I like to take time to read their posts and profiles, basically get a feel for what the poster is looking for..
I also like to let the new person know what my posts will reflect...for example here we dont tell each other what their problems are, we dont diagnose, we dont go agaisnt each others treatment providers. what ever your treatment providers have diagnosed and are/have treated you is what you will need to go by.
what we do here is share with each other, sometimes ask questions, tell each other what our own treatment providers call things and how they have treated that with in our selves.
how does this apply to what I see in your posts/profile?
well your topic question....need answers, most of all is there hope to be myself....we cant answer that. only you and your treatment providers (past, present or future treatment providers) can answer that. why because we are not you and we are not your treatment providers...I also see by your posts that you have many problems that share the same symptoms that can be many different things...
let me give you an example....
I was online somewhere in a website like this one. I told them pretty much the same stuff you have posted..well I got about 10 replies of people saying my seeing dead people,and all that was dissociation, and sure theres hope for me...
the reality was there was no hope for me as long as I was not in treatment and not on my medication for my bipolar induced psychosis. the reality was those people who were dead and inhabiting my body and mind were just how my brain was showing me, the stuff that makes up a persons brain like dopamine, neurons, receptors and other stuff was out of whack causing the problem. after I was on medication and back into treatment for my bipolar those inside me that were a result of bipolar induced psychosis, hallucinations and delusions went away.
having people inside can be symptoms of just about every mental disorder and physical problem out there....
the best thing I can tell you is if you really want to know whether there is hope for you, and want to feel better, the best thing you can do is go back into therapy and on your meds and if the meds and the therapist you first see isnt the right fit, just keep on trying. then when you have a treatment provider who you are willing to work with you can ask them for some tests that will diagnose what the problems are and get you on the correect treatment that will allow you to be hallucination, delusion free. once you have that taken care of it will be so much easier for you to address those with in you that are dissociative type personalities.