I don't believe what people say about feeling better when you are ready. It's like someone told a friend of mine that if she were emotionally ready her stomach cancer would be cured. That comment caused my now deceased friend a lot of agony. I am ready, have been ready. Am working my tail off to do the right stuff to feel like a functional human again. My brain chemistry never had a chance to develop normally as I was tortured from day one. But I, am a good, caring, kind person who tries hard and wants to feel better. Yes, I make mistakes and I have done and do some bad things but I am wanting to just have joyful feelings with out the depression and anxiety. How much more ready can I possibly be? I do what the doc and t tell me, I eat good food, though not much of it, I drink water, I swim, I play with my animals, I take care of my family. Where the hell is the joy?