Idk, maybe it's time to go to a shelter. she keeps calling
me names, like skank, etc.. I dont want family counciling
I just want far away from her. I wish I had the means to
get out, but i dont. I burned yesterday. I dont give a ****,
what anyone says... when she croaks, I WILL BE AT PEACE.
I cannot go foward w her in my life. She will NEVER change,
Suicidal thoughts are racing in my head... but not for her,
I WONT GIVE HER THE SATISFACTION. She is poison in
my life.I am not handing her no money for ****. KISS MY
***. I am in a semi safe place right now. I hope in the
end she gets what she deserves. ALL those yrs of hosp
-italizations, bc of her and other issues. A REAL mom
would never treat their own like this. I need help. I
am swimming in an abyss of HELL.