from what i've read in your posts and particularly this thread, you do not strike me at all as aspd. people with aspd are very good at reading body language and are at ease around others. I have come to find that when looking up information on ASPD, the most common symptoms and descriptions are the misleading ones. They are usually written through misunderstanding/pain/resentment/ignorance of the disorder. I wouldn't focus so much right now on labeling yourself as I would on learning to think in a healthy manner. Most people have a construed view of others and an even more so one of themselves.