Welcome to the club....I think we all feel like you did when the bell went off in your head...saying...hey!!!! that's me...I do that...OMG there are others....
I remember a poem that I had to memorize for grade school...it always stuck with me

I'm nobody
who are you??
are you nobody too??
then there's a pair of us...
don't tell...
they'll banish us you know...

cant remember the rest...but I have felt I was searching for something to help pull me out of the abyss...and this forum did it....Its making me fight back.... Its not easy....but I will continue to fight every day....See I am a survivor.....bet you are too!!
Hope you have a nice relaxing evening and wake up to new and wonderful year!! Take care...