its been 30 years and I still cant think "in a healthy manner" so that ain't gonna help me ha ha ha ha I have been treated before with many different meds including anti depressants and a few anti physcotics, I've been to a therapist who said I'm normal lol yet I still have many problems not all of which I have told them. Nothing has helped, I have no friends and no job, I have hardly worked in my life and moved around a lot. Have touched on crime and drugs among other things, nothing serious as murder but crime anyway. I just got told by my sister I used to throw things at mum when mad though I don't know if she tells truth cos I don't trust my family. I don't trust anyone much so I have some issue beyond ptsd or the therapy and meds would have fixed me. I don't dress or act "how a woman should", my personal beliefs are against my communities- I hate christians. It's a safe bet I could be aspd though I do have emotions, I cry sometimes and I like compassion- the idea of it though I don't know how compassionate I truely am since I hate s1uts and wish they would get run over by a bus on a regular basis...